I'm sorry

Its cold here in the city
Always seems that way
Ive been thinking about you almost everyday
Thinking about the good times
Thinking about the bad
Thinking about how bad it feels all alone again

Im sorry for the ways things are in China
Im sorry things arent what they used to be
But more than anything else
Im sorry for myself
That youre not here with me

My friends all ask about you
I say youre doing fine
I expect to hear from you almost any time
They all know Im lying
I cant sleep at night
They all know Im dying deep down inside

Im sorry for all the lies I told you
Im sorry for the things I didnt say
But more than anything else Im sorry for myself

I cant believe you went away
Im sorry if I took some things for granted
Im sorry for the chains I put on you
But more than anything else
Im sorry for myself for living without you