Joining the circus

Never won a medal for bravery
Never won a medal for tact
Never thought 'the truth' would enslave me
Turn me into something too close to a liar
I'm joining the circus, i'm going away
Waving from the boat, i don't cry
I will arrange
Savor the lie
Go blind on all these words
Divine myself this urge
I'm joining the circus, i'm running away
The people i won't know, the places i won't stay
Now where is the circus?
I only see clowns, half-naked girls and mirrors
I leave them in the sea to drown
I love her now